I went on a vacation with my girlfriend and her son and I really like spending time with them. I feel like the quality of my life is better when I am with them and I just had a really great time going to the beach and water park with them. I loved watching her son make the connection that when he wears a floatation device he isn’t going to immediately drown and he can have fun. His little face beaming with excitement was really tone of the highlights of the weekend. I feel grateful that I have both of them in my life, because I feel privileged to bear witness to such things.
I don’t feel comfortable really talking about my relationships with family, friends, or in any public forum. I’m afraid that if I vocalize my emotions then the cruelty of fate will come crashing down on me and I will again be adrift in the wind. I think about her constantly, I think about the azure pools that radiate love from the depths, I think about the warmth of her touch, and the softness of her voice. I love her, and I think with more certainty each day that I have found someone that I want to be with for the rest of my life.
It’s feels weird to say that, but in the most public way possible I’ve decided to articulate my feelings. When I am with her I want to be a better person, I want to be confident and bold and I feel disappointed when I fail. Most importantly I want to work with her forever on building something lasting, maybe a vacation together is and was a nice step towards that.
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