To put it nicely my relationship with myfather has always been strained. He is an alcoholic with a rosy view of his parental skills. I’m not going to deride him any further than that, people fail despite their best intentions and limitations.
I have to believe that a person can find redemption. That is the only reason I have a tenuous relationship with our father at this point. My world view is predicated on the belief that forgiveness is possible and redemption is a real occurrence. That doesn’t mean it ever happens but I believe in the possibility that these things can happen. I have no illusions about my father, but I have a hope in my heart that one day he will realize the awful toll of his actions. I don’t think it will ever happen, but self realization and actualization do occasionally happen. I can’t bear to think about the alternative possibility; because if redemption can’t happen then that would also mean that I can’t find it. It’s more complex than that, but that is all I am able to write on the subject.
I believe that the cornerstone of this world is love; anger, resentment, and discord have no place in that perfect world. I’m imperfect, we all are; but love is and that idea is personified by complete mercy. Compassion is hard work; it is far easier to brush people off or speak with anger than it is to see their foibles as something shared by us all.
This life has been given to you for repentance. Do not waste it on vain pursuits
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