After watching Casino again over the weekend I was struck by the scene in which Ace proposes marriage to ginger and what amazed me was how familiar it seemed; then after many moments I remembered why it seemed so familiar, and that was because I used the same logic Ace did when trying to stave off an end to a relationship. I didn’t use the same words, but I followed the spirit of what was said and meet disastrous results.
I waste my time generally speaking with women who are a bit cunty, and I had somehow overlooked this particular lass’ innumerable short comings. I admit, at the time I was speaking I was entirely hope fully that the sound logic and reason of my words would convince this woman to be my bonnie lass. I guess I am not as silver tongued as I always thought myself to be, or that using logic derived from a sports handicapper is ultimately not going to benefit me. It made sense at the time; I just thought that if we both made a mutual apperception for each other, if we both like spending time with each other than why not just say let us be in a relationship. It makes to much sense, and apparently the human heart is allergic to logic, or if I was a misogynist I would say that women in particular are immune to logic borne from a man’s mind; but I’m not overtly misogynistic so I won’t voice that sentiment
I think I am ready to date again. I emphasize think, but I am fairly certain that I have learned the appropriate lessons and will make new exciting mistakes rather than the constant retread of past behavior. I have mostly stuck to online dating but have wondered as of late if online dating an admission that a person is irrevocably broken in some way. I’d like to think that the answer is no but then again I graduated from a program where women out numbered men and due to gross incompetence on my part still remained single. I don’t drink, for many reasons, but let me say that alcohol addiction is very prevalent in my family and I don’t exactly feel comfortable with the thought of drinking, I doubt that one drink would turn me into a booze hound, but all the same I’m not willing to take that risk. For me, due to my aversion to the consumption of spirits I would never even begin to entertain the notion of going to a bar or club and expect to meet someone. As for why I couldn’t meet that special someone in school, chalk that up to stupidity. For instance I was in the art program, where men were mostly outnumbered by woman and in lieu of ever making any kind of move I decided that it was important for me to concentrate on school. Could there have been someone interested in me; probably, did I ever like anyone, most definitely; but I never dared act on such a stupid impulse. Now after years of online dating I have to say it is just absolute crap. I’m not saying its all crap but the bad really outweighs the good here, I have been stood up more times than I care to reminiscence. For every brief moment of sweetness I am faced with I encounter such horrors that at the end I just want to stop dating all together. Obviously I haven’t because I like women and want to see more of them, and unless science or prayer can make them magically fall for me I am going to have to continue to expose myself to the very real threat of emotional entanglement and pain. There are so many reasons to hate internet dating and dating in particular but one thing I don’t understand is how these sites can claim any person is a “match” based on how the participants respond to a generic questioner. I have been “matched” with someone with a 90% degree of compatibility and found this person to be charmless and empty headed. Am I to believe that because we both responded in the affirmative to question about how we felt about pets that we will be soul mates.
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