A little bit

......Eros your barbed arrows are truly liberating, and only the stupidity borne of a squandered youth kept me from realizing this truth sooner. Oh what folly had I brought upon myself, to live cloistered from the waves of emotions fated to crash down
upon us all, there was never any wisdom in my heart only pride and imprudence ever leading me astray from my salvation. How I longed for grace, O great one, while I staggered clumsily through the darkness, no light able to pierce the dark veil of ignorance affixed around me. Such terrifying beauty exhausts me to this day and I can only swear eternal fealty to her memory; she was the oasis to my famished blistered lips and I had great want to quench my endless thirst. I stood in the shadow of her ineffable beauty, and all I could do was tremble in fear. I felt like running and returning to the loneliness of my twisted existence, I was a beast undeserving of her virtuous presence. O Venus Genetrix, you alone know the depths of my anguish, how in the bleakest stretches of night I howled and wept bitter futile tears begging for a release from my torment; yet in that moment I felt no need to gnash my teeth in desperation as I was besieged by perfection.
She appeared almost luminescent her beauty so great that the dark itself would lament her absence; her feet barely touching the ground as she gracefully strove forward and I remained immobile as if under some sirens song. The frenzied thrashings of my heart gave way to sublime acquiescence and I no longer felt the need to fight against the deluge of passions that had been threatening to drown me. It was in that moment when I accepted how little control I have over fate that a miracle occurred, she kissed me.......